defying gravity...on my own

Lately I've been trying confidence. It has landed me 3 trainwrecks. Everyone always says, Be confident! Guys love that!
Well, they don't.

I think rather than being confident, I'm going to try independance. Independance = not being dependant. This country that I love SO much tried it 230 years ago, so this one marks my independance.

I know that I dont need a guy to be whole, to be happy, or to be complete. It sure makes being alive more fun, but I can be all those things with my family, friends, and God.

A few days ago I went out to ice cream with my friend Beth. Laughing with her felt good. In fact, it felt great. Tonight I went out to ice cream and a movie with my friend Megan. Laughing with her felt great as well. I haven't lost my friends. I haven't lost anything except 20 pounds.

I know my Redeemer lives, I spoke with Him this morning.

Shoes don't stretch

I can't figure out how to get out of this. This place that I'm at. I dont mean for this blog to be all about how terrible my life is - because quite honestly, I have an amazing life. So why do I feel crummy?

Is there too big of a hole from not being full of God? He's given me everything and yet I feel like He's not answering. I know an unanswered prayer isn't always a "no" and a "no" isn't always an unanswered prayer. But I feel like I'm not getting either of those.

Sometimes I feel like I overflow with love for my family and friends. I have some amazing, incredible friends. And then I have some friends that I miscalculated their friendship and wound up hurt because of it.

I'm amazed and how hurtful people can be. Especially people who care about you. Or say they do.

I just feel like I can't move forward, or backward, but I certainly can't stay where I am.

life goes on

this growing up stuff, man I dont know...

Today was a better day than yesterday. Probably because I got to work in the office and didnt have to say "Press down, pull up on your lap bar and exit to your left" x2384923 times.

So SO excited to see Carrie Underwood this Saturday at Van Andel! Dierks Bentley and Kenny Chesney will be there too, but I'm fired up to see Carrie. I feel like a huge dork because her songs fit me perfectly...I'll probably go nuts!

It's amazing how much money I'm raking in at Michigan's Adventure. 93 hours in 2 weeks will do that, though. I guess I should just be grateful that I adore my job and don't mind being there over 45 hours a week. I actually am very very grateful.

I simply love when I hear old songs on the radio. Not old like Beatles, but old like Alanis Morrissette. I heard "Ironic" on the radio today and smiled through the whole thing...It made me think of 6th grade and how the past 10 years have gone by, but the song remains the same.

Some things never change. Some things never stop changing.